Losing One's mother - an artistic perspective

I lost my mother on Nov 16. Although I am 50 years old now, in my mother's presence I had always felt like a 10-year-old boy. Now that she has passed away, the full import of my 50-year-old existance has suddenly become apparent to me. The sheltered life that I had led all these years has now vanished.
My shoulders are now gradually being weighed down by the increased burden of familial responsibilities passed down by my mother.
There is a great vacuum in my being that I am still trying to fathom. What is it that I have lost with my mother's passing?
When my father passed away in 2003, I could still withstand the loss as my mother being his representive was still beside us.
However now I am completely cut off from the physical presence of my parents. From the artist's perspective it appears the sky of my life has suddenly become cloudless. But I am confident that just as my father's spiritual presence became stronger after his disappearance, my mother's presence will be felt by me, stronger now than ever.
The bond of parents is an unbroken chain as until the time of our own death and probably even further, their benevolent glance will always be upon us from whichever realm they have moved on to.
In fact as parents leave their physical body, they leave a part of their postive karmic energy behind as a safeguard for their children. This energy depending on its strength looks after the children as a guardian angel.